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Poster:eclypsia
Date:2003-10-20 14:59
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Mood: depressed

I am starting to get really depressed and it hit me very very hard last night. Thankfully Edris was around to keep me from completely losing it. The night at work ended early and I decided to surprise Greg at work, and well, he frankly didn't appreciate the fact that I was there at all which hurt. But then I thought that maybe he views Chelsea's as his sanctuary, his place to get away from me and Ethan... and well, I can accept that. Then Greg and I went to leave and on our way to pick up E, he turns to me and says, "You're really manic right now, maybe you should fight against the mania and stay in for the night." Of course, he never wants me to go out, so I don't know if he was saying that for my health or for his laziness.

After being at Greg's mom's house, I suddenly felt the change... I go so depressed and upset and down I could barely speak. I went to The Jew's to talk with Edris and I just felt so depressed. Thankfully Edris kept me from sinking too far. Oddly that night, I picked up a notebook to write my schedule for Edris, and Eli states that its odd I pick up that notebook as that "has more about me and Greg in it...blah blah blah" Jokingly I said, "Maybe I should read it." He didn't seem to care so I said, "Actually frankly, I am done finding things out about Greg. I would be perfectly happy to not know anything else about him." Eli just said, "I know."

Nonetheless, the consensus is to go talk to someone and get this shit worked out, I'm tired of being depressed all of the time. I even started to have really terrible thoughts about my son that I just couldn't seem to control. So bad that I wished he had never been born and that I made a mistake and wished I could take it back. That's really hard to write without crying, but I figure that the only way to start helping myself is to be honest.

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Poster:eclypsia
Date:2003-10-08 00:47
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Hey ladies, was the name of your pscologist Tom Carey... because he's on my insurance list!

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Poster:eclypsia
Date:2003-10-01 07:24
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Mood: aggravated

It would be nice if this little Zoloft pill would start working now. Although, I have felt less anxious, I am sitting here dwelling over crap and its keeping me up. I really would like to sleep. Thinking of taking some more cough syrup to stop the cough and hopefully relax a little. I am afraid of that freaky drunk period... did help the cough though. On a positive note, I haven't been a hypochondriac for the last few days although I have been sick. I am urging to take a shower... still haven't cut down the three showers a day thing. I think I'll wash my hands instead.

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Poster:eclypsia
Date:2003-09-15 01:56
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I added "not being pregnant" and "webmd.com" to the list of interests for this journal community. Tee-hee!

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Poster:eclypsia
Date:2003-09-15 01:32
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So, after hunting all over the internet to find some sort of self diagnosis for this lump/sore/swelling/red thing, I have decided that I most likely have a boil. Just one more infection to add to the list. So, yes, Baughb, I will have gotten that staph infection that you had inquired about if I do indeed have one.

I think I have built a tolerance to Benedryl. Ugh.

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Poster:eclypsia
Date:2003-09-08 21:56
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So, now I think I am starting to develop a breast infection. I have this terrible pain in my boobie. I've heard that masititis is the worst and that you will eventually get really sick from it. However, it is also treatable without anti-biotics. I'm just tired of being a walking infection.

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Poster:eclypsia
Date:2003-09-07 14:37
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Since the rash went away or mostly away, I have decided to be a hypochondriac for someone else. Today was Ethan's Welcome Shower and Greg told me that thejew couldn't attend because he has a weird swelling on his neck. My first response was, "Maybe he has goiter." Sometimes I think that being a hypochondriac is humorous, afterall what kind of person assumes that someone has goiter in the United States?

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